"And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to"

The lyrics from Linkin Park's My December echo through my mind.  Sometimes you just want a place to go where you can just be, a sanctuary away from the daily grind, and someone to come home to.  There are times when I am having a bad day that I just want to be left alone, come home to the peace and quiet and bury myself away.  I know when I am depressed that I am not very good company because I am irritable and moody, though I find that people can cheer me up but only if I am in the right frame of mind.  It's very frustrating having a roommate who is always here because I can never really have the alone down time that I need.  Other times, I wish I could come home to someone who would give me a hug if I needed it or take care of me, fix me dinner, whatever so I didn't have to think. 

I had a long day at work today, getting disheartening family news and then working through lunch and staying late to work on things.  I was hoping I would get an email or text from a special someone throughout the day to put a smile on my face but that didn't happen.  Normally we would talk on my way home and that usually puts me in a better mood but hy wasn't around then either.  Then I had to deal with botched up dinner prep plans and I didn't even feel like eating dinner tonight.  It would have been so nice to have someone wrap their arms around me and tell me everything would be fine, even if they wouldn't.  Maybe they would make me something to eat so I didn't have to make any decisions about it or do it myself.  Of course this isn't the only reason I want someone in my life but for today, I could have used a loving sanctuary.