It occurs to me now, of course, that I do see how I feel about each of them, if only in retrospect.  I think there is a fine line between friendship and other relationships.  You can share things about yourself in either situation, feel the common bonds of friendship develop as you learn more about one another, enjoy spending time together, in whatever capacity that may be, but the reality is, for me, there has been only one sign in the past that tells me I am interested in someone in more than just a friendly way.  There's this feeling I get inside - call it butterflies, my heart skipping a beat - whatever the name for it is, I have found in time that if it is present, it probably means something, and I should pay attention to my heart.

While I enjoyed both conversations and time spent immensely, truth be told, there was only one with whom it seemed more than usual anticipation or a smile spreading on my face (though those are good things, too, and necessary for any type of relationship).  At times, things were said and I felt my heart flutter in ways that have not occurred with the other person.  Perhaps I should have seen it then but I didn't notice it or didn't want to acknowledge it at the time.  Do I think things would have been different if I realized I did not have feelings for both of them?  No, I think things would have gone the same, but obviously I cannot answer for either of them.  Would they have chosen to do things differently?  Somehow I doubt that but I do not know that for a fact.

I don't think recognition of this has gained me any further insight in to what I am supposed to do about any of this.  Essentially there is no decision to be made as I cannot influence how others feel about me; I can only hope the feelings are returned and a foundation is built.  Do I think that it would be the best idea to tell this person how I feel?  No, I can't see how it would make the situation any better.  Unfortunately, it was brought up to me because others' have made assumptions about my feelings, so I was asked direct questions which I will never avoid.  I do wish perhaps the situation had been a little different because truthfully, I feel like I am really putting myself out there when I admit I am interested in someone and I'm not sure how they feel so that is not a comfortable position to be in.  I'm trying like hell to protect my heart and not doing a very good job of it.